Honesty

Honesty, I struggle with the concept, when friends or family ask how I'm doing. “Hanging in There”, sometimes code for, “I feel like crap but hope to feel better soon.”

Honesty with Susan is even more difficult; I will not hide what is going on or how I'm feeling. Often, when speaking, I know it's painful for her to hear, but I owe her nothing less then the truth. Her response is never anything other then to comfort me.

I have been thinking about honesty quite a bit lately, how honest should I be with myself and those around me. It is an interesting question. 

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I missed a follow up appointment today because of a serious accident (not mine) and have been lucky enough to reschedule right after the Labor Day weekend. Hopefully I might gain some insight as to why I seem to be sliding backwards instead of progressing ahead albeit at a snails pace.

Perhaps I'm unrealistic in my goals and aspirations, my reaction to my ten mile run last weekend was probably not hard to explain and the subsequent week of GI Track “Swings” probably completely within norms. Even so I grow tried and impatient with all of this.

There were a couple of splendid days; on Sunday I drove to stay with a friend at his cabin in the Western Maryland / West Virginia area. Monday and Tuesday spent on great hikes, my favorite being to visit Muddy Creek Falls. Located in Swallow Creek State Park, Muddy Creek Falls it is the tallest free falling waterfall in Maryland. If that were not enough the park boasts one of the only UN-lumbered areas in Maryland with breathtaking three hundred year old Hemlocks. 

Fun was followed by a full day of GI issues on Wednesday although I was able to get almost a full mile of a run in before I rushed home to be “Chained” to the head for the remainder of the day.

Thursday, feeling decent I did manage two short runs and a walk but today I'm back to feeling just shy of awful. Three nights of little sleep for no apparent reason may be to blame but I'm not sure.

I had Reiki this morning and as always it helped, just wish I could “Bottle It Up” and have it when ever I needed it.

This weekend I have entered the Thorpewood 10K Race. Last year I finished in an amazing second place. (Somewhat due to the Young Man in front of me getting lost). There is no way I'll be able to race hard unless through divine intervention so I'm looking to enjoy and know that I'm supporting a good cause. Well ....... sorry .......... that just sucks ...... I'd rather kick ass.

Enjoy the Labor Day Weekend

Mike