Humpty Dumpty Two Years Later

Humpty Dumpty couldn't be put back together again but two years ago today I was.

I thought I remembered the day quite vividly but even so I went back and read my blog. Reading what I had written validated memories and reminded me of the long slow journey I’ve been on.

Two years have seen good progress but not as far as I had hoped. There is no way to sugar coat it, I'm in some sort of pain almost one hundred percent of my day. It's not severe but it's a  gnawing presence that keeps me on edge if I give in to it. There are exceptions of course, pain pills, booze and running.

Well at least one of the three is actually good for me. It's tough however to run just when you want to go to bed, it's then, in the quiet comfort of my own bed I feel every tingle from hand and foot nerves damaged from chemo. Lately with some self massage or mental imagery I have been able to suck it up and go to sleep anyway but not always.

The GI system is workable as long as I stick to a fairly simple diet that has limited meat and dairy intake. Limited is the key as well when it comes to alcohol. Two nice glasses of wine (Almost always red) prove beneficial, three are risky and more is a sure fire prescription to the throne room the next morning / day. I have used this knowledge to my advantage to prepare for a race or other noteworthy event.

Looking ahead I feel progress with my GI track will continue but I am coming to the realization that my hands and feet may be an issue for some time to come. Warmer weather , running, attitude and diet will hopefully get me to a point where I will not require any pain killers to “dull me up”, I feel dull enough as it is.

Today, two of my kids had their wisdom teeth extracted. I'm pretty sure it's their first time to experience physical hardship lasting longer then a cut to a finger, minor burn or a twisted ankle. I am grateful for that and for how well they are both doing, it's a day they won't soon forget either.

Stay Happy

PS> I've signed up for Terrapin Mountain which will be held at the end of March. The last two times I have run this I have been inspired to run perhaps the finest races I have ever run considering the circumstances, I hope I may continue in that tradition.