Fathers Day weekend and so far it'd not one I will care to remember much in the future.

A blowout argument with my sister Kathy over "stupid stuff" last night, has been overshadowed with news from my college roommate, dear friend and another brother that his wife was taken to the hospital last night. A CAT scan found nodules in multiple sites and her lymph nodes are enlarged . Another CAT scan will be done later today to follow up on the initial tests. Today, we were supposed to be on the Golf Course enjoying each others company.

This news reminded me of the day I was told I had cancer, trust me it is a terrifying experience, and to be honest, I had suspected it for some time.  I am hopeful that tests later today will tell a story different than the one I hope not to hear.

Another dear friend, who after battling stage 4 breast cancer (second time around) found out that the chemo she was getting did not reach her brain because of the brain / blood barrier. End result, after beating all the tumors everywhere else in her body three appeared in her brain. Surgery removed one and the other two will be treated with Cyber knife.

Yesterday I went to a funeral of a younger running friend whose father had died from Bile Duct Cancer at the age of fifty eight.

I realize it's just not me but millions who know the hardships this disease brings.

Few or no one reads this blog anymore and that doesn't matter, it is therapy for me to get this out . Cancer, the fear of cancer and it's consequences suck.

Mike