It was a hard week, several times I sat
down to update my blog and each attempt ended the same, staring at a
blank page with little enthusiasm or idea how to start.
Perhaps the most difficult challenge of
the week was to understand how and why I was feeling the way I was.
There were the physical aspects to contend with, the exam on Tuesday
morning left me sore and unable to run until Saturday. Several
patches of sores broke out on my head and I felt nervous and jumpy.
My normal resting heart rate, typically in the high fifties or low
sixties was in the seventies.
Mentally, I fought to keep my attitude
upbeat but I was loosing the fight.
Friday morning, driving into Frederick
for Reiki, my hands shook and my heart felt as though it was pounding out
of my chest. Relaxation did not seem possible or probable but after
thirty minutes with Dee I was able to turn a corner.
Saturday was cold and windy so for the
first time I decided against running a race. Instead, I slept in running later in the day when it was warmer.
Yesterday I met my trail running
buddies to run a slow but rewarding five mile loop followed by
firewood cutting and a little football watching. Even had half of a
steak for dinner which is the first steak I've had since August. (We
will continue on a low meat diet)
Now for the “Bad news”, somewhere
along the line, either when cutting, hauling or splitting firewood. I
pulled or tore a muscle in my stomach just to the right of the main
incision. If there is any “Good News” from this the damage is
very isolated and only bothers me with certain movements. Through
trial and error I found I could roll over in bed without pain by
first bringing my knees towards my chest . Rolling over with legs
straight was not a wise move.
So what will this week bring? Another
chemo tomorrow with the expected “First Bite Blues” and
Sensitivity to cold. I can handle that and more as long as I can keep
my head together.
Congratulations Mel and Joe for your
half Marathon performance!
Ninety Four Bottles of Beer on The Wall ....... Mike
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